happy birthday nilam :)

awalnya gue kira ulangtahun ke 16 ini tidak ada yg spesial, eh ternyata tepat habis maghrib, semuanya pada dateng kerumah dengan membawa kejutan yg bener-bener buat gue seneng banget nget nget ada temen sekelas dan ada yang gak sekelas juga. SUPRISED banget pokoknya!!

ini foto-foto pas ulangtahun ke 16 tanggal 23 juni 2011

ulang tahun ke 16 ini gak bakal gue lupain dan selalu gue ingat (y)

thanks to: Lulu Hafidztianingsih, Ega Manda, Nita Meliana, Ayu Puspa, Rizki Dean, Geyanda Bagastara, Enggar Alfiansyah, Rio Gusti, Bayu Ramadhan, Bela Permata, Alineke Sugiati, Anis Nurwasilah, Abdurrochman, Wira Astira, Achmed Andrew

YOU'RE THE BEST :)

Taylor Swift - The Story of Us

I used to think that one day we'd tell the story of us,
And how we met
And how the sparks flew instantly
And people would say they're the lucky ones

I used to know my place was the spot next to you,
Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat
Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on

Oh, a simple complication,
Miscommunications lead to a fallout,
So many things that I wish you knew
So many walls up, I can't break through

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

Next chapter

How did we end up this way?
See me nervously pulling at my clothes
And trying to look busy
And you're doing your best to avoid me

I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here
But you held your pride like you should have held me

Oh, I'm scared to see the ending,
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how
I've never heard silence quite this loud.

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

This is looking like a contest
Of who can act like they care less
But I liked it better when you were on my side

The battle's in your hands now
But I would lay my armor down
If you said you'd rather love than fight

So many things that you wish I knew
But the story of us might be ending soon

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now
Now, now, now

And were not speaking,
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,
'Cause were going down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

The End

NILAM SARI (semasa kecil)

 ini sekitar umur satu tahun lebih

 

ini sama Raisa Lestari (kakak)

Taylor Swift - Mean

You, with your words like knives, and swords and weapons that you use
against me,
You, have knocked me off my feet again, got me feeling like a nothing,
You, with your voice like nails on a chalkboard calling me out when I'm
wounded,
You, picking on the weaker man.

Well you can take me down with just one single blow, But you don't
know what you don't know.

Someday, I'll be living in a big ol' city,
And all you're ever gonna be is mean.
Someday, I'll be big enough so that you can't hit me,
And all you're ever gonna be is mean.
Why you gotta be so mean?

You, with your switching sides and your wildfire lies and your
humiliation,
You, have pointed out my flaws again, as if I don't already see them,
I walk with my head down trying to block you out 'cause I'll never impress
you,
I just wanna feel okay again.

I'll bet you got pushed around, somebody made you cold,
But the cycle ends right now 'cause you can't lead me down that road.
But you don't know what you don't know.

Someday, I'll be living in a big ol' city,
And all you're ever gonna be is mean.
Someday, I'll be big enough so that you can't hit me,
And all you're ever gonna be is mean.
Why you gotta be so mean?

And I can see you years from now in a bar talking over a football game,
With that same big loud opinion but nobody's listening,
Washed up and ranting about the same old bitter things,
Drunk and rumbling on about how I can't sing,
But all you are is mean.
All you are is mean, and a liar, and pathetic, and alone in life and mean.
And mean, and mean, and mean.

But someday, I'll be living in a big ol' city,
And all you're ever gonna be is mean.
Yeah, yeah.
Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me,
And all you're ever gonna be is mean.
Why you gotta be so mean?

Someday, I'll be living in a big ol' city,
And all you're ever gonna be is mean.
Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me,
And all you're ever gonna be is mean.
Why you gotta be so mean?

Ayah aku mohon maaf

Dan pohon kemuning akan segera kutanam

Satu saat kelak dapat jadi peneduh

Meskipun hanya jasad bersemayam di sini

Biarkan aku tafakkur bila rindu kepadamu

Walau tak terucap aku sangat kehilangan

Sebahagian semangatku ada dalam doamu

Warisan yang kau tinggal petuah sederhana

Aku catat dalam jiwa dan coba kujalankan

Meskipun aku tak dapat menungguimu saat terakhir

Namun aku tak kecewa mendengar engkau berangkat

Dengan senyum dan ikhlas aku yakin kau cukup bawa bekal

Dan aku bangga jadi anakmu

Ayah aku berjanji akan aku kirimkan

Doa yang pernah engkau ajarkan kepadaku

Setiap sujud sembahyang engkau hadir terbayang

Tolong bimbinglah aku meskipun kau dari sana

Sesungguhnya aku menangis sangat lama

Namun aku pendam agar engkau berangkat dengan tenang

Sesungguhnyalah aku merasa belum cukup berbakti

Namun aku yakin engkau telah memaafkanku

Air hujan mengguyur sekujur kebumi

Kami yang ditinggalkan tabah dan tawakkal

Ayah aku mohon maaf atas keluputanku

Yang aku sengaja maupun tak kusengaja

Tolong padangi kami dengan sinarnya sorga

Teriring doa SELAMAT JALAN BAUATMU AYAH TERCINTA

Yang terbaik bagimu (jangan lupakan Ayah)

Teringat masa kecilku kau peluk dan kau manja

Indahnya saat itu buatku melambung

Disisimu terngiang hangat napas segar harum tubuhmu

Kau tuturkan segala mimpi-mimpi serta harapanmu

Kau inginku menjadi yang terbaik bagimu

Patuhi perintahmu jauhkan godaan

Yang mungkin ku lakukan dalam waktu ku beranjak dewasa

Jangan sampai membuatku terbelenggu jatuh dan terinjak

Tuhan tolonglah sampaikan sejuta sayangku untuknya

Ku terus berjanji tak kan khianati pintanya

Ayah dengarlah betapa sesungguhnya ku mencintaimu

Kan ku buktikan ku mampu penuh maumu

Andaikan detik itu kan bergulir kembali

Ku rindukan suasana basuh jiwaku

Membahagiakan aku yang haus akan kasih dan sayangmu

Tuk wujudkan segala sesuatu yang pernah terlewati

Ayah

Dimana…akan kucari

Aku menangis seorang diri

Hatiku….s`lalu ingin bertemu

Untukmu…aku bernyanyi

Lihatlah…hari berganti

Namun tiada seindah dulu

Datanglah..aku ingin bertemu

Untukmu…aku bernyanyi

Untuk ayah tercinta, daku ingin bernyanyi

Dengan air mata di pipiku…

Ayah, dengarkanlah aku ingin berjumpa

Walau hanya dalam mimpi…

Kerispatih - Maafkan Aku

Maafkan aku

Terlalu memaksakan diri

Tak bisa kumelangkah

Tanpa hadirmu

Paksakan diriku

Tuk bisa pergi jauh darimu

Apa yang kurasakan

Tak seindah dulu

Coba mengerti kerinduan hati

Akan hadirmu di hatiku

Akankah lagi kurasakan semua

Damai jiwa bersamamu damai bersama

Rindu yang sesakkan hati ini

Tak bisa ku dapat lagi

Namun hanya angan yang bertahan

Menahanku tuk pergi

Taylor Swift - Innocent

I guess you really did it this time
Left yourself in your warpath
Lost your balance on a tightrope
Lost your mind tryin' to get it back

Wasn't it easier in your lunchbox days?
Always a bigger bed to crawl into
Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything?
And everybody believed in you?

It's all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not what you've been
You're still an innocent
You're still an innocent

There's some things you can't speak of
But tonight you'll live it all again
You wouldn't be shattered on the floor now
If only you could see what you know now then

Wasn't it easier in your firefly-catchin' days?
And everything out of reach, someone bigger brought down to you
Wasn't it beautiful runnin' wild 'til you fell asleep?
Before the monsters caught up to you?

It's all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not what you've been
You're still an innocent

It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin' up now
Who you are is not what you did
You're still an innocent

Time turns flames to embers
You'll have new Septembers
Everyone of us has messed up too

Lives change like the weather
I hope you remember
Today is never to late to
Be brand new

It's all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights are still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not what you've been
You're still an innocent

It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin' up now
Who you are is not what you did
You're still an innocent

Lost your balance on a tightrope
It's never too late to get it back

Taylor Swift - Dear John

Long were the nights when my days once revolved around you
Counting my footsteps praying the floor won't fall through again
And my mother accused me of losing my mind
But I swore I was fine

You paint me a blue sky and go back and turn it to rain
And I lived in your chess game
But you changed the rules everyday
Wondering which version of you I might get on the phone tonight
Well I stopped picking up and this song is to let you know why

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home
I should've known

Well maybe it's me and my blind optimism to blame
Or maybe it's you and your sick need to give love then take it away
And you'll add my name to your long list of traitors who don't understand
And I'll look back and regret how I ignored when they said
Run as fast as you can

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home
Dear John, I see it all now it was wrong
Don't you think 19's too young to be played by
Your dark twisted games when I loved you so
I should've known

You are an expert at sorry
And keeping lines blurry
Never impressed by me acing your tests
All the girls that you've run dry
Have tired, lifeless eyes
Cause you burned them out
But I took your matches before fire could catch me
So don't look now
I'm shining like fireworks
Over your sad empty town

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home
I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with
The girl in the dress wrote you a song
You should've known
You should've known
Don't you think I was too young
You should've known